Today’s Elf4Health task was to spend 15 minutes meditating. Like Monday’s whole “go meatless” thing, it was a huge challenge for me.
I. Don’t. Meditate. My mind never slows down enough to be still.
But I had to try. I don’t want to blow the Elf4Health challenge in Week One. I figured the easiest way to do it would be to pretend I was at the end of a yoga class. That’s the closest I ever get to having an empty head and just being.
After a 20-minute walk/jog, I grabbed a stand for my phone (so I could snap photographic proof of my meditative state), and flopped onto the deck in corpse pose.
Umm … I certainly can’t say my meditation time went swimmingly. All I can say is that it went — and I only grabbed for my phone three times: Twice to see how much longer I had and once to take a picture of the sky.
A litany of thoughts ran through my head as I laid there:
- I hear traffic on Route 66.
- Is that a car or a truck passing by?
- The breeze is rustling in my ear.
- Crap. Is that a thump in the house? What are the dogs getting into now?
- This deck is hard. I should have brought a pillow out here with me.
- I’m going to end up getting sunburned if I lie here in the sun for 15 minutes.
- There aren’t many clouds in the sky.
- I love living in Arizona, where the sky’s always blue.
- Hey, that reminds me of a song, “The Sun Always Shines on TV.” Who sang that song, anyway? (Answer: a-ha. I googled it while writing this post.)
- Are those clouds moving? They are, right?
- Does that cloud look like a cat? I think it does.
- I should be writing these down. I can turn them into a funny blog post.
- What’s for lunch?
- Meditation is thirsty work. Maybe I should sit up and get a drink of water. (This right after I opened my eyes and saw the bottle by my feet.)
- At least it’s a pretty day.
- I’m going to get a sunburn, I know it.
- What’s for lunch?
- I think I’ll take some chocolate almond milk with me to Starbucks so I don’t order a low-carb Frappuccino. I can get an iced coffee and make my own latte instead.
- I wonder how big tomorrow’s paper will be?
- Why can’t I just be still? Do I not like myself enough to be with me?
Okay, that last one’s a little too heavy a thought for this silly post. But it did happen, so I had to make note of it. Maybe I’ll revisit it someday. Just not today.
The exercise reinforced the idea that meditation isn’t for me … at least not so much of it all at once. Maybe I should start smaller, with five minutes. I can work up to 15.
I’m not opposed to meditation. Like I said, I really love the last few minutes of yoga class, when I’m lying there, breathing deeply and relaxing. Sometimes I swear I fall asleep. It never feels long enough, that’s for sure.
For the rest of the week, I think I’ll try to set aside five minutes each day for meditation. We’ll see how it goes from there.