My life coach, Jenn, and I have talked at length about the idea of observing without emotion — a topic she recently blogged about herself.
In the world of health, the media has shown us the “goods” and “bads” of food and health. Food is labeled, exercise is labeled. Just about everything has a good or bad label. Processed, fake, fattening, carb laden, high protein, calorie heavy, genetically engineered, antioxidant, clean. To name a few. Throw in a dose of weight struggle, body image struggle and you are set up for not only a world full of labels but a world of confusion surrounding food.
The trick — and it is a trick, especially at first — is to stop thinking of food as “good” or “bad,” “healthy” or “unhealthy.
I haven’t had a lot of success with this yet. (I just stopped myself from writing “I’m not very good at this yet”). However, I like the idea of trying to figure out why I’m making the choices I’m making — without judging them.
Take Friday, for example. I felt pretty good about my food decisions — virtuous, even. Uh-oh … that sounds like a judgment.
To get back to the emotion-free zone, I’d just gone grocery shopping and had lots of delicious things to eat. When I prepped food for the night at work, I packed just-purchased tomatoes, snap peas and hummus, along with grapes and an orange — all things I couldn’t wait to eat. I also grabbed a hard-boiled egg and some pineapple Chobani.
Apparently, I did want to wait on the egg and the grapes. They sat in my lunch bag, uneaten, along with a Vitatop that got consumed with a glass of milk once I got home. (It may or may not appear in the March 4 PFJ post, depending on whether I update when I get home.)
Either I packed too many snacks, or what I ate so filling that I didn’t need to devour everything. I even said “no” to a chocolate cupcake (thanks to Elle’s line in the sand thing).
I told myself that of course I could have the cupcake, but then asked if I really wanted it. My answer? I’d rather see downward progress on the scale, thank you very much.
It’s a start, right?
And tomorrow, I’m going to take advantage of semi-warm weather before work to do something outside. I’d like to hike, but I don’t think I’m in good enough shape for anything prolonged. Maybe I’ll head out to the park and walk the 2-mile loop — backward, to get the hill out of the way first. 😉